And so her story unfolds..

Rebonded.

2009-12-03T02:19:00.014+10:30

I got my hair rebonded for the first time yesterday at this salon just down the corner from the place we're staying. It cost me only P1000 (around $23-$25) for the whole treatment + haircut!!
I was there in salon for about 6-7 hours straight!! Luckily the only customers there, were my mum and myself. So all we did to pass time was chit-chat with the salon people and shout them dinner. (I wanted to upload the photos from my phone, but i dont have the cable etc.. grrr.)

It was a such a longg process due to my very thick hair.
1. My hair was washed and blow dried.
2. Hair was separated into sections and this hair straightening cream / relaxant or softener was applied (forgot what it was called)
3. After about a couple of hours, my hair was washed again.
4. Hair was blow-dried.
5. A hair straightener / flat iron was used to painstakingly straighten every portion of my hair until it was dead straightttttt... (this part probably took the longest, as they had ALOT of hair to straighten. lol)
6. A neutraliser cream was then applied and kept on my hair for 30minutes
7. Hair was then rinsed, and blow-dried once again
8. Hair serum was applied
9. Hair once again ironed for finishing touches.
And voila! I end up with superrr straight, smooth and shiny hair! (I wish I could have shown you guys a before and after shot, oh well...)

Only downside with getting my hair rebonded is that I'm not supposed to wash your hair for 3 days! ><
It's only been a day and my hair is starting to get greasy.. ughh i hate going to bed with unwashed hair... *sobs*

I suppose thats the price I have to pay for beauty.. harhar..

:(

quick update

2009-11-30T23:00:00.005+10:30

Hi all,

Just a quick update cos the net keeps cutting out, considering i'm just stealing the net from our neighbour. haha!

We just arrived home from going shopping at Tutuban markets.
Tomorrow we've planned to go to Mall of Asia.
Im still hoping to purchase more bags and shoes. So far I've only bought 5 pairs of shoes.. and im looking to expand that to maybe 7-8more pairs. I just hope it will all fit in the luggages when we go back home to Sydney.
So much to do here.. so little time.. *sigh*

Anyway, cant be bothered to write anymore..
I've also finished uploading the rest of the Singapore photos into the albums belowwwwwwww...
Singapore Day 1 photos
Singapore Day 2 photos
Singapore Day 3 photos
Singapore Day 4 photos

Recap

2009-11-23T00:47:00.022+10:30

My last blog entry was a bit of a rush.. this one isn't really any better..
It's been almost a week since we arrived here in the Philippines and I've been too busy going shopping. So I guess sometimes I can't be bothered to update and write a travel blog entry..
So I'll just give a brief recap/photos of what took place during our trip to Singapore.

DAY 3
Here we are having a buffet breakfast at our hotel. Like i said in previous post, there were loads of food to choose for breakfast. From cereals, bacon, eggs, rice, a variety of bread and pastries, fruits, hash browns pancakes, lalala, list goes on.

We then continued the day going on a guided tour of Singapore.

on the tour bus

This is an example of the apartment building, where the locals live. They hang their clothes on a ?6metre long bamboo stick. At a very young age, girls are taught how to balance and hang the clothes on these bamboo. The tour lady said that if they didn't learn how to do this, then they shouldn't be getting married.. haha! (or something along that story..)

Visiting Little India
Ganesha - Hindu God.

Merlion.
Head of a lion (Singapore = lion city) and the body of a fish (as Singapore was known to be a fishing village)

Visiting a Buddhist temple

Chinatown.
Opposite the temple.

Visiting the Gem factory.

artwork made from various gemstones..

The Botanical Garden

DAY 4 - At Changi Airport, Singapore.. waiting to board our plane trip to Manila.
Their airport was soooooo beautiful. It was super clean and had lots of lush plants found here and there.

Anywho, i guess that was a gist of the trip.

The rest of my photos I'll upload on my facebook later. hehe..
Ok, toodles!!

Singapore

2009-11-20T00:26:00.010+10:30

Hellooooo all...

I've only managed to get access to the internet tonight, so I'll just give a brief recount of what I've been up to so far..

DAY 1.. [18/11/09]

I seem to have a difficult time trying to get decent rest/sleep on long airplane trips. I can never find a comfortable position on those cramped airplane seats. The plane ride to Singapore was particularly annoying because of this woman who was seated near the window, and I swearrrrrrrr she did not close her window blinds (whatever they're called) throughout the whole 8-hr trip!!! And because of it not only was i uncomfortable, I could not even get proper rest due to the light shining ever so brightly on my face! Grrr!!!

Didn't get much sleep after we checked in to our hotel that night either.
I had to share a room with my parents, particularly my dad who is the LOUDEST SNORER I know!!!! UGHHHHHHH. The beds we're like a metre apart, but when my dad snores it was like someone was jack-hammering near my head the whoooooooooole night!!!!!

DAY 2 [19/11/09]

Started the day with an awesome buffet breakfast at the hotel. There was literally a smorgasborg of food to choose from. THE BEST!!!

We then took the MRT to City Centre to browse around the sites, went shopping at all the shopping complexes at ?ORchard boulevard (not really good at remembering places). My feet are aching sooo much from walking like a bazillion kilometres!!

I swear Singapore has got be the CLEANEST place I have ever been! I have not yet seen a single cigarette butt or rubbish on the street! The weather here is sooooooooo humid that by the end of the day I feel so sticky. ughhhhh..

The guy who sweeps the streets.

Anyways, I have to rush this blog, my internet time is about to run out.. ARRGHHH!

p.s. the food here are soooo much smaller. The KFC burgers they serve here are like the size of the bread rolls they have at KFC back in OZ.. It's probably why the locals around here stay so slim. lol.

Ok till next time.. bye!

One more sleep!

2009-11-17T15:20:00.006+10:30

Sorry for the total lack of posting.
I thought I could make an effort to blog at least once a month.. obviously not.. ><

Anywhooooo, only one more sleep before we head off for our Singapore / Philippines trip, and honestly I wasn't as excited as I was three weeks ago. Three weeks ago I was suuper pumped to take my annual leave and get away from work! If work was to be personified, I would totally be rubbing it in his face, and be like:
"YES! I'm going on holidays and you're not! HAH! Take that! In your face Work!". lol.
Right now, I think all that excitement has fizzled out, knowing that after this holiday, it's back to reality.. and i would have to face Work once again. *sigh*

We'll be spending 3days at Singapore and spending the next three or so weeks in the Philippines. There's still some last minute packing to be done, which I will probably get around to.. tomorrow morning. hehe. As always, my mum insists that we make use of the 20kg baggage allowance. I mean seriously, she wants to fully pack all the suitcases with pasalubong, items to be given away, clothes to be repaired/altered and also some food. She's not happy until all the suitcases are bulging and bout to burst open. If it weighs 19.9kg, she could probably find something to make up the 0.1kg. It's annoying!

Call me selfish, but is it too much too ask to have a suitcase all to myself?! I refuuuuuse to pack my clothes with food and other random items! I remember, one time my mum packed some clothes for giveaway with a tin or jar of sardines. Totally not the most brilliant idea!!
I pack my own luggage so that I know exactly what's inside my own luggage and I know where everythign are. But you know, my mum has a habit of interfering and re-packing my things to make extra space, so she can sneak in a couple of items! (They could be illicit drugs for all i know! LOL JOKES!) GRRR! Remember what happend to Schapelle Corby? I don't wanna end up like her! lol

So anyway, I'll see how I go with keeping a travel blog, whatever you call it..
It'll probably just consist of me talking about how I went shopping! haha!
I hope there's free internet at the hotel or something, otherwise I am so going have major internet withdrawalssssss............ *dies* lol.

sorry, my englis es nut berry goot..

2009-09-22T22:40:00.009+09:30

It's strange how some of the most beautiful people can get away with responses like these... Good on them for trying though.
Next time, please make their lives easier and just ask them a question in tagalog. PLEASE!

Oh and remember this?
(Miss Janina San Miguel - Binibining Pilipinas 2008 Q&A)

Happy Father's Day!

2009-09-06T01:22:00.004+09:30

Considering that it is father's day, I'd just like to take some time and write about how awesome my dad is. Call me bias, but i think my dad is pretty amazing. I admire the fact that my he is a hard-working person, who works with such joy and fervour in his heart.. no complaints. He's not fussy or vain. He enjoys all the simple things in life and that's what makes him pretty inspiring to me.

He's 59 years old.. and for his age, he does what alot of dads, husbands or men don't/won't usually do.

Thanks Pa for..
.. doing some of my school projects back in the days..
.. teaching me how to drive, even if our driving lessons ended up with me in tears.
.. cooking when Ma was away overseas!
.. vacuuming the house every weekend
.. washing the dishes we had left piled up on the sink. lol
.. having awesome carpentry skills; the desk you made as my study table, and the shoe rack you made to store the the numerous shoes I have.
.. mowing the lawn, so our yard doesn't end up looking like a jungle.
.. sewing/hemming my jeans and work pants, because I do such a dodgy job of it.
.. voluntarily doing our piles of laundry, hanging them on the clothesline. and yes.. ironing them too!
.. being an AWESOME DAD! I love you.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to you Pa and to all the fathers out there!

With all that said.. my mum is pretty amazing too! But thats for another blog. :D

Visual illusion

2009-05-09T19:40:00.008+09:30

oOOooo INVISIBLE CAR! or is it?

The Skoda Fabia magically disappears when viewed from the right angle.
22-year-old art student, Sara Watson spray painted a battered Skoda Fabia to match the car park and entrance to her art studio. Three weeks and hours of painstaking spray painting later, a visual illusion masterpiece is created!

"People have been stopping in the street to look and coming up and almost bumping into it, so it's had the desired effect."

A weighty issue..

2009-04-24T02:46:00.014+09:30

Ohh the irony of it all!

"Skinny model Stephanie Naumoska bites back at anorexic claims".

Naumoska's size came under scrutiny during final judging on Wednesday night, when the alarmingly thin and bony model was seen strutting the beauty pageant catwalk dressed in a skimpy red bikini...

"I think it is very unfair that I have been criticised that I'm too skinny,'' Naumoska said.

"I have never been anorexic or bulimic I don't throw up my meals after I eat them I don't starve myself, none of that... I eat six to eight healthy meals a day.''

...Naumoska's modelling agency website lists her as 180cm and 49kg and although the 19-year-old model admitted she did not weigh herself she believed she weighed at least 52-55kg.

Sure, a couple of kilos on her wouldn't hurt..
But while majority of people in Australia are in need of losing some weight, there are a significant few (like myself) who don't tend to pile on the weight.

I had an overweight co-worker (who everyone at work finds annoying and lazy) had the nerve to TELL me that I needed to put on some weight...
Of course being the nice person that I am.. I politely explained to her that I had always been naturally small-built blah blah blah.. Something which i believe she wouldn't understand anyway... ~~that fat whale!!~~

Mind you, the evil me would have b*tch slapped her at that time and told her to her face, that MY weight was NONE of her beeswax! Alternatively I could have said something smart-ass like:
"Gee, those tuck-shop lady arms and turkey neck, sure are a good look for you!!"
OR
"Maybe you could tell me how I can put on some weight, since you've gained quite ALOT of it yourself!"
HAHA! Touché!

Mourning my loss..

2009-04-23T23:16:00.004+09:30

I am soooooo soooooo shattered!

I was coveting these (size 5!!!) Tony Bianco 'Prance' shoes ever since i spotted them on ebay. I had already envisioned myself strutting around in them..

To be outbidded by $1 is such a stab to the heart! *sobs*. My knees were literally trembling after such a devastating outcome.

I'll be chucking a sickie for work tomorrow to mourn my loss.

Just for the sake of it

2009-03-30T01:44:00.008+10:30

I told myself I would at least blog once a month.
So here it is.. just for the sake of posting something.

Charice Pempengco. She's got the most amazing vocals I've ever heard from someone her age.
If only I had her talent.. I'd be jetting around the globe performing with the likes of Celine Dion, Andrea Bocelli.. Rubbing shoulders with Oprah, Ellen and whoever else.
But noooo.. I'm stuck in a middle-income job, having to put up with people and their pathetic illnesses. ugh!
Why?! Why cruel world, do u torture me so?!

I've got a crush on a youtube star..

2009-02-20T06:08:00.015+10:30

I was once totally enamored with Joshua Allen, winner of America's SYTYCD Season 4 (see old post here) or watch the video below..
Geez, i still get kiligz despite having watched this a bazillion times.. *sigh*

That was until Charmaine introduced me to Gabe..
It's 6.30am in the morning and I cannot fall asleep. I am up watching his OTS videos, cos I have nothing better do. saddd, i know...

I fall apart when you say 'hello', in the beginning of your video..
Gabe!! how did u know i felt this way? *meltssssssssssss*
~~marry me please..~~

p.s. I hope you like this one too Ari-Fairy..

p.p.s. watch for his totally adorable smile & wave at the end of the song. :D

The media.

2009-02-19T20:24:00.004+10:30

Proof of how the media can blow things out of proportion.

The Daily Telegraph article here.

Girl suffers severe facial injuries in dog attack
By Kate Sikora
February 18, 2009 12:50pm

A TWO-YEAR-OLD girl has "severe facial injuries" after being bitten by a dog in Sydney.
The toddler was bitten on her face by a half German Shepherd and husky dog at a house in Woodcroft, Blacktown, about 10.30am.
Ambulance officers have taken the girl, from Durras Close, to Mt Druitt Hospital.
A hospital spokeswoman said she was in a stable condition.

Images of a girl with a gaping wound on her face, profusely bleeding, come to mind just from reading such article. But having looked after this girl as my patient, I know for a fact that these 'severe facial injuries' were nothing more than what looked like minor superficial abrasion. The girl presented to hospital in no distress whatsoever. . Ended up just needing the wound cleaned and covered by good old bandaid :D

25 Things you may or may have not known

2009-02-07T00:49:00.004+10:30

This is simply copied & pasted from my facebook notes.

1) My full name is Kristine Charlz Ferrer. There, I no longer feel the need to keep my middle name a secret.

2) Im 22 years old and can often be mistaken for a 16yr old.

3) I have a size 5 feet, which makes it extreeeeemly hard to find shoes that fit.

4) Singing karaoke makes me feel like a superstar.. haha!

5) My brother and I used to have handball competitions, where we'd bet $1 or $2 for every game won.. It was a good source of income during those younger years. lol

6) I am the most UN-athletic person I've ever known. I never realised why i was always picked last in sports at school until now. HAHAHA!!

7) I LOOOOOOOOOOOVE CURLY FRIES. I can probably finish a whole pack in one sitting. You can buy 600g a pack of curly fries from Aldi for $3.70 *drools*

8) When I was 7 or 8 yrs old, I had an operation to have some cyst in my lungs removed. I still have a 13cm scar to prove it.

9) I once had 3 jobs at the same time. I worked as a casual at Forcast, Cotton On & Diva.

10) As unprofessional as it may sound, I felt embarassed to resign, so i simply stopped showing up to work. LOL. i figured they'd get the hint and they just eventually stopped rostering me on.

11) I don't know how to ride a bicycle. I'm too afraid to learn cos I'm scared of getting injured.

12) I didn't go to school for a week when i was totally crushed about my superrrr short and ugly haircut.. yes, i can be pretty vain..

13) The school rang my parents once because of my high absentee rate during Year 12.

14) I am scared and totally grossed out by creepy crawlies, especially the big cockroaches that can fly!!! eww.. eww..

15) I once thought of becoming a hairdresser. I tried cutting my brother's hair before and it turned out crooked. I got in trouble from my parents.

16) I also once thought of becoming a lawyer, or a teacher or a famous musician. HAH!

17) I now work as a Registered Nurse at Mt Druitt E.D

18) I still use my EXPIRED student card to get discount when buying movie tickets, train tickets, etc.

19) Sewing is one of my hobby.

20) Ebaying-ing is another one of my hobby.

21) I LOVE freebies!!

22) I am envious of people with naturally straight teeth.

23) I have a blog, which I just recently updated. :D [www.miss-cheekz.blogspot.com]

24) I seriously think I'm nocturnal or something.. I sometimes go to bed at 5am in the morning..

25) I've been trying to save up ALOT! My aim is to have saved up $50k+ in my bank account by the end of this year. :D

My new boyfriend.. lol

2009-02-06T16:30:00.006+10:30

Sha posted this video on facebook, and I think I may have grown a small crush and am now a tad obsessed with this guy.. hehe

And if one video is not enough.. here's another one:

Im loving his cheesy 'Hallowww's at the beginning of each vid. hehe
He also forgets some of the song lyrics.. but who cares? He's still pretty dreamy..
Ohh.. and watch out for his goofy wave at the end of this song.. *sighhhhhhhh*
He looks absolutely adorable in his vids. *melts*
Not so much in some photos tho..

Anyway, here's Gabe Bondoc on you tube

What's the occasion?

2009-01-06T23:10:00.011+10:30

Out of all the dumb things I've said throughout my whole 22 years of existence.. this by far regrettably tops the list.

[23:00hrs - an excerpt of a phone conversation with my bf, who's away on holidays to visit his family in Queensland]

[distinctly hears music and people in the background]
Me: hey, what are you up to? *slightly suspicious of a party going on*
Ryan: uhh.. we're jsut having karaoke
Me: karaoke? okay... *who the heck has karaoke this late on a Tuesday night?? i wonder...* so what's the party for? WHAT'S THE OCCASION?
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Ryan: it's uhh my birthday...

*tumbleweed*

Enough said. *hangs head and walks away in shame*

Hey God...

2008-12-14T01:24:00.013+10:30

[no blogs on shopping purchases or random finds for today. So all that aside, now on a serious note...]

Just when you thought you knew how things would turn out.. just when you thought you had everything planned and mapped out.. It goes completely wrong and it turns a totally different direction. What the heck do you do?

It really becomes an eye opener and a reminder that as much as we think we have control of what's going on in life.. We don't. We forget (I forget) that God is the only one who is in control. When things are going peachy and you feel like your at your peak, its kinda like "Thanks for all your help God, I'll be fine now, so I'll catch you later..".
It's kinda sad how it's only when life takes a completely different turn, or when we come across a 'dip in the road' or a 'low point' in life, that we (or I) begin to realise "crap.. I got myself in a big mess here and I have no idea how to get through it, so I'd really love your help again, God".

So I guess what i'm trying to say is.. Im really sorry God. Sorry for the all the times I put my busy-ness ahead of You. Sorry for neglecting and forgetting to include You in my life. I remember when we used to be close.. I really want it to be like that again. I know I can be reallyyyy lazy. But help me be better in spending more time with you, help me make better use of my time. I should really hang out with You more..

a vintage find

2008-12-13T15:03:00.010+10:30

I was rummaging through a pile of old clothes at home and found a pair of shorts that belonged to my mum. I liked the colour of the denim, plus it had a a nice elasticised waist, which was perfect to be turned into and worn as a skirt.

a simple outfit..

Coincidentally, i found a similar skirt from Sportgirl for $69.95!!

p.s. sorry for the crap photos. I promise i'll take better photos next time.

p.s.s. stay tuned, as i will b e posting more of my vintage finds and shopping purchases.

what the?

2008-12-07T01:50:00.007+10:30

I hate to leave this blog lookign so plain and bare. But I haven't had the time to finish making my own layout, and I've misplaced my usb containing all the files and such.

Anyways, i stumbled upon a 'Kevin Rudd looks like ice-cream' group from facebook.. which i thought was slightly amusing. Must people always poke fun at our prime ministers? LOL.

I almost died...

2008-11-30T22:27:00.004+10:30

I dunno if anyone else has had similar experience..

I was at a shop the other day trying on clothes, and as i walked into the fitting room, i almost died...

... Died from a revoltingly horrific and gut-wrenching stench!!! What kind of human being can leave that sort of deadly odour?! Geeeeeeeeeeeez! It ruins other people's shopping experience!!

I mean come on!! Can't people smell their own b.o?? Or have they simply grown immune to it??

A piece of advice

2008-11-24T16:09:00.009+10:30

Hello fellow blog-readers. If any of you ever get an allergic reaction (hives) similar to mine, here's a few tips and advice...

- See a doctor!!! Or if you couldn't be bothered waiting in line at the medical centre, keep reading below...

- If you know what it was you're allergic to, then don't take it again. Otherwise, that's just stupid.

- Buy yourself some antihistamine medications and you dont even need a prescription. To control my hives I've taken Zyrtec tablet in the morning as its non-drowsy. Then at night, i take 25mg phenergan (you can take 12.5mg if u wish), another anti-histamine which also has a sedative effect. You'd need to be taking this regularly or however the doctor has instructed you to do, in order to reduce the histamines in your system. I wasnt really instructed by the doctor to do so, but i found my method really helps.hehe. Pls. note: Refrain from taking any of these medications I've recommended if you KNOW you are allergic to them.

- Your doctor may prescribe you some corticosteroid tablets (Prednisone / Prednisolone). These help in allowing the anti-histamine medications your taking to work more effectively. Pls. note: These should only be taken for a couple of days and no more. Just follow GPs instruction.

- Apply calamine lotion to itchy areas.. although it will leave you with ugly white patches

- Another alternative i used was sigmacort ointment. hehe. it's actually my mum eczema cream, but i found it really helps control the redness and itchiness.

- As tempting as it may be... avoid scratching, as this will only make it more itchy and it may cause an infection.

So as i am slowly recovering from my hives, I have now acquired another illness (no thanks to the sick, but adorably cute kids in the paediatric ward ive worked in). Ive had a fever for the past two days as well as a very sore throat. Yes, i have tonsillitis. The advantages of working as a nurse in a hospital is that it saves you having to purchase medications. The disadvantages are you're prone to acquiring all sorts of viruses and what-not.

- If you go see a doctor, they will usually take a swab of your throat to determine the cause of your tonsillitis. Results don't come back in couple of days?
- Tonsillitis can either be caused by a bacteria or virus. If it's caused by a bacteria, antibiotics such as penicillin is commonly used. But if your allergic to that, erythromycin or roxithromycin may be prescribed. When tonsillitis is caused by a virus, then antibiotics are pretty much pointless. Just give it time and it should eventually resolve itself, depending on which virus it is.

As for myself, I didnt bother consulting a doctor, so Ive taken matters in my own hands.
For the mean time.. I'll need to get myself some xylocaine viscous (its a pink gooey like consistency which helps numb the affected area). Ive given this to heaps of patients before, so i do know what I'm talking about.
Other forms of pain relief you may consder takin are: lozenges, gargling with warm salty water, taking analgesics etc. You may also consider taking some vitamin c tablets. It really helps with building your immune system and fighting off infections!!

So i looked into my throat, and couldnt take a proper photo.
I did however find a photo which closely depicts the state of it.
Enjoy!.. mm.. yummy..

Sick.

2008-11-13T01:13:00.007+10:30

Aside from having a bad case of hives.. I am also suffering from heartburn, sore throat, swollen fingers and a patchy face. WHY?!? WHY?!?

I rocked up to work today, but ended up getting sent home anyway cos of my really bad and itchy rash. I managed to scab some phenergan tablets, which I now taking instead of Zyrtec. It's supposed to make you drowsy too, but i dont feel sleepy at all. I also got some calamine lotion, which helps relieve some of the itchiness. I won't be stepping out of the house anytime soon considering I'm all covered with white patches from the calamine lotion.

But i might just go see a doctor again tomorrow... *sigh*

Itchy & scratchy..

2008-11-11T23:15:00.005+10:30

It started around 3 days ago, whilst i was doing night shift at work.. I noticed my scalp started getting very itchy. I also found several mosquito-bite-like marks on my neck and on my arm. I didnt take too much notice of it.

The next day I found myself itching literally from head to toe!! Red marks and these massive welts appeared everywhere! I immediately thought of it as an allergic reaction to something I must have eaten. Looking back, i did eat a packet of chilli Red Rock chips and some ice cream at work. I ate chilli stuff before, but never have I had any allergic reaction to it.

it doesn't look as bad in the pics..
but trust me i have heaps more really ugly allergy photos i decided no to post up

I showed my parents the marks.. My dad even suggested it could be chicken pox or even bed bugs! :S. And so i even changed all my bed sheets and half-cleaned my room. Bed bug count: zero.

I honestly thought it would just go away in a day or two. But it got worse yesterday.. I tried all measures to stop the itching. I took a shower at least a couple of times!! I ice packed the reddened and itchy areas to try and numb my skin. But to no avail. It got to the point where prob 70% of my body was plagued with these red welt type marks. I literally felt my scalp and my whole body was burning! ARGH!

I went to the doctor and he immediately diagnosed it as urticaria (also referred to as hives) and was definitely NOT bed bugs! phew! (thanks alot pa! i think he jsut told me it was bed bugs so i would clean my room. lol). So anyway, i was just told to take Zyrtec. It helped relieve the itchiness for several hours and I noticed some of the swelling and redness went down.

But now as we speak, the redness and itchiness has sprung up again! And I'm experiencing a bit of chest tightness, but no difficulty in breathing (yet!). This sucks! I know I shouldn't scratch but its jsut so damn itchy and annoying! I'll be showing up to work tomorrow with red marks everywhere! Let's jsut hope it doesn't appear on my face. Thanks alot allergy!! Grrrr!

Australian Idol '08 pukes

2008-11-04T19:40:00.021+10:30

I've never really followed this years Australian Idol, as I've been less than impressed with the chosen idol contestants. Ask me who I'd want to win this year's Australian Idol.. I couldn't give a crap..

But.. if I had to choose.. i'd place my bets on this man..

Wes Carr:
Two thumbs up for his version of Michael Jackson's 'Black or White'.
Whoddathunk this hippy looking guy could pull off some of MJs signature dance moves.
Teehee.. I keep replaying this video..
*loves it*

Now.. let me just take some time bagging out the other four idol contestants which made this year's Top 5..

Chrislyn Hamilton:

Thank gawddd.. she was eliminated last night! Puhhh-lease.. we don't need another Casey Donovan.

And may i add that her arm is as big as my thigh (perhaps even bigger?)!

Mark Spano:
I dont understand what Australia finds appealing about him. He reminds me of someone who works at one of those kebab shops in Westfield. lols!

Luke Dickens:
How the hell did he make it this far??
Whats with the goatee dude? that's soooo not cool! Nor is it appealing..
I suppose it makes up for his receding hairline.
He has the case of HIV (hair is vanishing) lolz.

Teale Jakubenko: ahh.. i found a lego man look-alike!

Sculptures by the Sea

2008-10-28T18:33:00.004+10:30

Here are some of the photos taken on our trip to

Bondi's Sculpture by the Sea Exhibition..

this was my probably my favourite..

i heart scrabble (photo scabbed from Tim)

Another one of my fave..

obese looking sculpture..
(Ry sporting his $40 Lonsdale singlet. :p)

this bubble like sculpture out in the sea..

i love this one too..

Other photos can be found by clicking here

Please tell me your joking..

2008-10-19T19:35:00.029+10:30

After getting around $3000-something for my tax return, I thought it was only fitting to splurge and spoil myself. What better way to do that, than to go shopping! Yay! Feeling so overly generous, I got my bf to join me on a shopping ~~spree~~. I figured, its the least i could do to thank him for putting up with me for the past 3 yrs or so.. lol.

There was one rule i thought i made clear to him:
I would pay for anything he wanted, provided that it met my approval.

I purchased for him some items he liked from Jeans West:
shorts: $40, shirt: $30, vest:$60. TOTAL: $130
*cringe* I thought it was quite pricey.. but hey its not very often he splurges on clothing.

So everything was going so well.. until his eyes laid upon these Lonsdale singlets.

RYAN: there are these singlets i wanted to buy at Lonsdale

*we head back into the shop and walk up to the counter, where the sales lady starts scanning 2 singlets*

ME: *subtly whispers* Are those the singlets? She's scanning them..why is she scanning the item? I havent even approved. How much are they?

RYAN: $40.

ME: for both?

RYAN: no, $40 each.

ME: $40 each??!! Your joking right? are u joking? please tell me your joking.. *desperately waits for the 'im just joking' reply* *i begin to talk in filo* That's so freakin expensive for just a freakin singlet that has Lonsdale written on it. You already have similar Cotton On singlets that are half that price!!

RYAN: this one is better fit and better quality!

ME: UGH! Im not paying $80 for two freakin singlets!! I REFUUUUSE to pay for something that expensive! (Listen to me boy! I'm not afraid to make a scene here, i tell ya. If you wanted a Lonsdale singlet.. I'll gladly purchase a $10 singlet and paint Lonsdale on it. Damn you!)

Sales lady: that comes to $79.95... (shut up.. stupid saleslady, its ALL your fault, even though its not.. hmphh..)

RY: Fine. I'll pay for it myself. *whips out his credit card to pay for the items*
(At that point i wanted to tackle him to the ground, just to STOP him from purchasing those overly priced singlets.)

ME: *grunts, rolls eyes and walks away in disatisfaction*

As you can probably tell, I'm not quite over it. I had to blog my frustration away...
What's even more frustrating is that I made absolutely NO purchases today.

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Yes, I've chosen to change my layout to one of blogger's default templates. I'm in the process of 'trying' to design my own.

OH and I received a blog award from Chinx! WOW! Thanks!

Shoe-biz

2008-10-11T23:03:00.013+10:30

How utterly crazy and innovative are these heel-less shoes / boots ? lol

Worn by Victoria Beckham to a fragrance launch event in New York last week, these Antonio Berardi boots made their debut on a Paris fashion show just last year.
The platform base is weighted, which forces your foot downwards and forwards so that you can't fall backwards.

It'd be nice to try one on.
However, it does come with a $7500 price tag. eck!

Other shoe innovations worth mentioning are these Marc Jacobs' surreal shoes

Like 'em?

Haircut.

2008-09-28T00:52:00.019+09:30

After over a year of telling myself to go see a hairdresser.. I got finally got my hair cut yesterday!!! So i rocked up to one of the small asian hairdresser place at Blacktown and luckily i didnt have to wait that long. 5 minutes or so.. i was called up for my turn to give my long locks the chop :D
The asian lady asks me what sort of cut i wanted..
'My hair is very thick, so i just I just want my hair kinda layered and thinned out..' I told the lady
'Ohh like a mullet?' she said.
'Noooooooooooo! definitely NOT like a mullet' i replied.
I had no idea what made her think I wanted a mullet.. nowhere in my description did i even mention a mullet.. eeww. I was relieved however, that she asked and clarified what I wanted.

Anyway, I would probably say that I am 90% satisfied with my haircut. Thank goodness it was only $15! Im happy with the length.. just not happy that my hair is like super thick and super black! My next plan is to get some highlights in my hair just to give it a bit of colour, rather than just have it plain black. so yeh..

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Last week, I went went with my parents and brother to one of their church fundraising - 'Cafe Aja - dinner and live music', as a little belated birthday celebration for myself and my dad. My mum invited tita joy to come along.. and i ~~forced~~ persuaded Ryan to come along as well. :D

I hate to admit it.. but I had a great night out with my parents. There was great food, live music and a very cosy atmosphere to the whole shebang. I was glad Ryan could come along. He got some major interrogation, especially from my mum (..but he survived! lol). I think they may have even been left intrigued by his life stories :D

Spriiiiiiiiiiiiiing!!!

2008-09-20T22:34:00.010+09:30

It's been over a month since my last blog.. but here i am now keeping you updated on some of the latest happenings.

First off.. I know my bday was 2 days ago, but I wanted to say a big 'THANK YOU' to everyone's bday wishes and greetings!!! I will post about my low-key bday celebration another time :D

Anyway, lately ive been feeling really inspired and motivated to take on a really cool project.. such as.. sewing. So I googled up some simple designs for me to tackle. I found a really easy to follow, step by step instruction on sewing a skirt here.

So it's supposed to look something like this...

Not to sound over-confident here or whatever lol.. but i'd have to say i've always been pretty good at sewing.. even back in the highschool days when we had textiles and design as one of our subject. And okay.. i have to also admit.. i even wanted to become a fashion designer wayyyyyy back then. But i know how difficult and competitive it is to make it big in that industry.

So yeh ra-dih-rah... back to my sewing project..
I found some old daggy floral fabric at home, and decided to use that for a trial run.

The skirt turned out to be bigger and longer than i planned it to be. So I improvised and turned it into a dress! Hey, i said i was good at sewing, not maths.. Im pretty bad with measurements lolz. But i reckon it was pretty damn good for my first attempt. hehe.

..and can u tell? ive wanted to be a model too. haha!
("yes, dream on cheekz.." i hear u say)

So you think you can dance: spoiler

2008-08-15T18:45:00.013+09:30

For those who don't know, I'm a big fan of Joshua Allen.. one of the dancers from the U.S series of So you think you can dance. He's like a cuuuuute teddy bear with dimples, braces and a big butt lol.

Anyway, I decided to google "Joshua - So You think you can dance" just to find some info and photos of him - especially the one where he was dancing the samba with Katee. hehe.
And.. well well well.. google decided to spoil it all for me when it gave the first google result:

"Joshua Allen wins 'So You Think You Can Dance's fourth-season title"

Thanks alot for spoiling it google!!! grr!!

Photos. Click here or here

2008 Beijing Olympics: The good, the bad and the ugly

2008-08-14T00:18:00.017+09:30

So the long awaited 2008 Summer Olympics at Beijing has finally taken place. Held in the National Stadium known as the Bird's Nest, the ceremony was attended by thousands, and watched by millions more on television.
Although I never stayed up to watch the whole opening ceremony on tv, there were a few things i felt compelled to write about.

THE GOOD...
I guess I'll let the photos do the talking..
more photos: http://www.boston.com/bigpicture/2008/08/2008_olympics_opening_ceremony.html

The Olympic rings in mid-air

life-sized feather dusters. lol
ok not really.. im sure it represented something but i forgot.

Human print press -
a sea of printing blocks that moved in smooth waves as if computerised,
but in fact powered by hundreds of men.

Electronic drum countdown..

Lighting the Olympic torch
(pretty cool, wayy better than Sydney, lol)

THE BAD...

Now this really bugged me alot, and I'm sure it has annoyed other people as well..

Most of you would have probably heard about the story of the girl, Lin Miaoke, and how she was chosen to go on stage and lip sync "Ode to the Motherland" in Chinese (or whatever language that was..lol). The only reason Lin was selected to appear in opening ceremony was because the real singer (Yang Peiyi) was not considered to be pretty enough.

"The reason why little Yang was not chosen to appear was because we wanted to project the right image, we were thinking about what was best for the nation... The national interest requires that the girl should have good looks and a good grasp of the song and look good on screen," said Chen Qigang (the general music designer of the ceremony, and a renowned contemporary composer and French citizen.)

Why should someone as talented as Yang Peiyi be turned down to perform, solely based of her appearance? Take (the annoying) Nikki Webster for example, the girl who performed in the 2000 Sydney Olympics.. she wasnt cute, she had crooked teeth, she was mediocre in her appearance and talent (LOL!).. yet she was somehow chosen to still perform in front of a kabazillion people.
The Olympics are supposed to celebrate humanity in its entire form.. rich and poor, black and white, big and small. Talent and Spirit is what should be Celebrated. What message and value does this reflect to young girls and the world?

THE UGLY...
It's so sad that we live in such a superficial world. It's ugly.. and I'm disgusted..

Future in-laws? hehe

2008-08-11T01:14:00.004+09:30

Just thought i'd post up a few of the photos taken with some of Ry's loved ones, during their stay here in sydney..

Ry and his uncle at the city..
Truly one of the warmest, outgoing and friendliest person I've met.

Karaoke @ the Basement, Blacktown.. hehe
Awesome night! Rekindled my love for filooooooo food..! *dies*
They made the best bulalo with sabaw, chicharon bulaklak and spring rolls..
Ry's uncle clearly enjoyed himself and took advantage of the stage. lol

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Below are some photos from last week, when tita Vivien's (ryan's mum) came down from Queensland to stay here in Sydney for a couple of days. I got to meet her for the 2nd time..

City night lights..

Rybadoodlez & his mummy (they look very much alike..)

dinner at Pancakes..

That's all for now..

The end.

Coolest toy..

2008-07-28T16:59:00.006+09:30

I was browsing through Target Toy sale catalogue (yes, like most 21yr olds would do. lol), and I have to say I was very much fascinated by this one toy in particular..

Fisher-Price Puppy Grows & Knows
$99.95
Puppy grows to full size dog in 4 days. Can magically become a puppy again. Talking puppy knows when it's brushed or fed. Puppy knows your name and when it's your birthday. Watch me grow! As seen on TV. New.

Can someone please care to explain how this works?? Is it like one of those Chia pet plants? lol! Kudos to Fisher Price for such innovative toy..!

update..

2008-07-22T21:17:00.011+09:30

I went to work today and found out the patient i talked about in my previous blog entry, actually passed away last night..

Anyway, i had a very busy day at work as always.. all the ventilator crap, setting up for the pt to get a vascath inserted, new CVC, putting up new lines and fluid orders, troubleshooting the freakin dialysis machine.. yeh. 3 more days and counting until the weekend..

Tangential thoughts for the day..

2008-07-21T19:12:00.034+09:30

` Ebay suspended my account. Its a long story.. But all i can say is damn ebay and their stupid rules.. Im pissed off.. damn their automated email messages. Everytime i try to make a new account they just keep suspending and blocking it. Damn you ebay!

Moving on.. i have to say how 'The Dark Knight' movie totally surpassed my expectations! I initially rejected Ryan's idea to watch it in the first place.. but i thought i'd give it a go, despite the fact i totally hated the previous batman (the one which starred Katie Holmes). Actually i'm not entirely sure if i 'hated it', as i never even bothered to finish watching all of it.. But yehh.. with that said.. two thumbs up.. go and see 'The Dark Knight'! I totally recommend it!

So going on a another tangent.. I wanted to share how I came soooooooooo close to performing CPR on a patient today.. it would have been the coolest thing..! It would have been a great experience to do BLS on a real person and not the fake dummies we practiced on at uni.

I'm not entirely sure about the patient's reason for admission, but i do know that she had very low haemoglobin levels in her blood and she appeared very much jaundiced. I heard the family refused for the patient to receive a blood transfusion as they were Jehovah's witnesses.

"Jehovah's witnesses believe that the Bible prohibits eating blood, and that this includes the storage and transfusion of blood, including in cases of emergency." - wikipedia

Anyway, with low HB levels.. it seemed inevitable she was going to deteriorate. To no surprise, her cardiac output (her HR, BP etc.) began to dropp. A team of us quickly bolted into the room to help. There was the registrar in charge of the airway and delivering breaths by bagging her, a couple of nurses in charge of giving noradrenaline and other IV meds, and a few us alternating to perform CPR (fyi, compressions are the hardest thing to do especially on real person..its a very exhausting task..!). The CNE told everyone in the room to let me to have a go at doing CPR on the patient. So just as i anxiously hopped on the bed ready to take over.. what do u know.. the pt's heart rate and BP improved (as shown on the monitor).. re-checked pt's pulse. Dr. ordered to stop compressions. I can only say I was half disappointed not to have my chance at doing CPR, and half relieved at the same time.
This happened twice mind you.. the patient crashed again about half an hour later. And just when i was abou to start CPR, her heart rate improved, her pulse steadied and all that stuff.. haha! And i didnt even break a sweat! hooray for me the miracle healer..!! nyahaaha jokes!! lol!!

To be honest.. ive learnt alot in the few weeks ive worked in ICU.. but i am so so over it.. Im ready for my next rotation. Paeds.

Anyhoo, four more working days before my 4-day weekend! woohoo!

Things to do:

2008-07-14T16:53:00.022+09:30

In no particular order..

1. ~~Get full licence~~ - ok. so i purposely put this one on my list to show I've actually managed to accomplish one. I passed the DQT test today. im so happy despite the fact i hate my licence photo, which I'll be stuck with for another 5yrs. Nevertheless, I no longer need to attach annoying plastic green P plates to the car.. and i can take my brother for driving lessons. hehe

2. Renew passport - can't leave the country without it.

3. CLEAN ROOM !!! If you saw the state of my room, you'll be amazed how someone can live in such squalor.

4. Get a haircut. If anybody knows any good hairdressing places, please don't hesitate to let me know. I've been putting off getting a haircut for so long as I'd much rather put up with split ends than pay for a haircut i'll regret. It's a fact that hairdressers always cut a client's hair shorter than their desirable length, yet the client will not make their true feelings known. As for me Ive had horrific haircuts and have been too shy to speak up about how disatisfied i am with my the haircut, so as not to offend the hairdresser. Instead I would just pay, vow never to go back to that place, go home and bawl my eyes out about such disaster.

5. ~~Pay people i owe money to..~~

6. Ive been meaning to read up and really get a grasp on:

BiPAP/CPAP and all the ventilator modes. I still dont get it..
~~DKA~~
ECGs.

Well thats all i can pretty much think of for now..

Intensive Care Unit

2008-07-13T12:02:00.013+09:30

I thought i would just share a couple of interesting cases that i've encountered in ICU.

- A patient about 30yrs of age was admitted to ICU after having a cardiac arrest postictal (after a seizure). According to the progress notes I read.. this pt was in VF (ventricular fibrillation), was defibrillated 5 times while in E.D and had very poor prognosis. He was brought in to our unit sedated with all cooling measures in place. We had placed ice packs all over him, wrapped him in cooling blanket and had a fan to help drop his temperature to 32degrees (normal body temp is around 36.5-37C). Studies suggest that induced hypothermia can actually help improve a pt's neurological outcome.. provided it is done within at least 6hrs after arrival to hospital. During a cardiac arrest, the pumping fuction of the heart is ceased abruptly, and therefore the whole body is starved from blood flow and oxygen. So in other words.. heart pumping stops -> no blood flows to the body, especially the brain -> can cause brain damage -> studies says cooling body down can help reduce chances of brain injury.

- There is another case which is somewat is similar to what i have mentioned above. A pt this time came in 'brain dead'. Put simply, this means that there is no longer brain activity due to the fact that the brain has reached a necrotic state after being heavily starved of blood flow and oxygen. The heart is still beating and the ventilator is pretty much the only thing delivering oxygen to his lungs. I was pretty shocked to hear this pt was only just in his 20s. The pt was apparently devastated after his fiance had broken off their engagement. His dad found him in his room after hanging himself and called ambulance straight after. I don't know much more of what happened during his stay in ICU, other than a family conference was held to discuss what the family wanted to do in regards to his care, organ donation and such..

Horoscope compatiblity stuff

2008-07-11T23:10:00.013+09:30

First of all let me say.. im not a big believer in all this horoscope / star signs / astrology stuff..
I randomly went into this windows live link about which celeb couples were made to be together and which were headed for splitsville, all according to their star signs.
I was bored and curious enough to google what the stars had to say about my compatibility (virgo) with Ry (capricorn). HAHAHA here goes!!!

Here is what ive googled up:

http://www.astrology-insight.com/compatibility/virgo_with_capricorn.htm

Virgo with Capricorn is the BEST match for these two, so go for it!

The two of you can accomplish anything you set your minds to. A pretty good match emotionally, also. They admire one another and take great pride in pleasing each other. Both need respect and approval and each intuitively gives the other exactly that. With these two signs there are some similarity and compatibility. They are both very exacting. This stops many areas of disagreement. They both take great pride in appearance and surroundings.

virgo and capricorn - compatibility rank = 10 (10 is best)

You can't go wrong with this astrological combination period. Strong feelings and loyalty will keep these two together. They will understand each other's goals and hopes for the future. These two will support each other through good times and bad. They will provide each other with what the other person instinctively needs and desires physically.

not so annoyed..

2008-05-31T16:11:00.003+09:30

Its been over 3 months since ive started as a new grad, working at mt druitt e.d. Although ive ranted and raved on about how annoying it was working there.. i must admit, it wasnt that bad. Despite my encounters with some stuck up, bitchy nurses, I stil lfelt ive been made part of the team during the time ive worked there.

I will miss all the staff - the wardsmen, the nurses and doctors who made my stay there bearable and quite enjoyable.. I will also miss the great time i've had with some of the e.d girls, going to our weekly pole dancing classes.. It was sooooooooo much fun.. Lots of laughter, bruises and sore muscles.

Things I definitely won't miss, but am sure will have more encounters with are.. all the screaming kids, annoyingly agressive parents, the morbidly obese, incontinent, drunk and rude patients ive had.. I sound so insensitive but i'm sorry.. i'm only being honest.

i am annoyed..

2008-03-09T20:20:00.006+10:30

I am annoyed.. and i have to vent..

List of things i am irritated at:

1. Working at mt druitt emergency department.
Why? cos i just hate it. it was one of the places i didnt want to work at. 1 week in and im already stressed out. I feel dumb and lost. I feel like Ive just been thrown into the hectic and chaotic world of nursing. It pisses me off.

I worked afternoon shift in paeds today, and i hated it. So while i was looking up in the MIMS how to give this IV medication (ie. checking how much fluid it should be diluted in etc lalala) for a patient, another doctor ordered me to give N2 maintenance fluid for this patient. I thought..wtf is N2? Turns out it meant n/saline + 2.5% glucose. I was already stressed, trying to figure out how to give this IV med, and at the same time im stressing out trying to decipher what N2 was. GEEEZ I SUCK!!

Prioritising and managing your time is crucial. Different patients come in and out of E.D., and you have to be able to know what assessments and interventions you need to carry out as soon as you receive that patient. What sucks is i'm the type of person who hates time pressure. I hate being rushed. I wanna just be able to take my time, think and make sure i am doing things right.

*sigh* i miss uni.

2.) I got blisters on my feet.. (i know.. its so eewww..)
So i went on a cruise at the city.. it was a bit of trek to get to the pier were the boats were. My poor feet got a total beating from my stupid, uncomfortable but pretty shoes. l already sustained 3 blisters by the time we got to the pier.

On the way back, i could no longer stand the excruciating pain.. so i did the unthinkable.. i walked bare feet in the city. I know, its soo eewww.. but it was better having black, dirty feet than having my feet plagued with more blisters.

3.) I haven't received my pay yet.
I started orientation and supernumerary days 2 weeks ago, i should have been paid by now.. I hate having to chase it up and sort it out with payroll..

4.) E.D educator.
Yehh, this old educator in our department annoys me.. I think she should just retire. She gets paid to do pretty much nothing (which is what I would like to do..lol) Most of the time i see her lounging around in the tea room. She'd occasionally come up to ask me if i was alright with everything. I'd say yes.. then she'd go back to doing nothing.

There was this one time, orders to give magnesium IV (..or watever) was written up for a patient who currently had 1L N/S fluid running over 8hrs. I wanted to double check, so I asked the educator if i should run the magnesium straight away.. using a burette. She told me to just wait until the N/S fluid finishes. I was like.. 'hmm okay..?' Several minutes have elapsed and the doctor comes and questions me why i haven't given the magnesium IV order yet. GRRR!! Some educator she was!! For someone getting paid to educate, orientate and help students or new grads (like myself) settle in etc.. shes doesnt really do a good job.

I ended up jsut asking one of the RNs there.. who told me i didnt have to wait until the n/s finishes. I could jsut run the magnesium via a burette. Well, what do u know.. i did get something right.. but stupid old educator gave me wrong instructions. hmmph..!

So from that experience, I learned not to listen to anything she says. I seriosuly think she is getting too old and too fat for her job..

Im already sick of this job. I wanna quit! :s

The fight

2008-03-05T12:17:00.005+10:30

I had a major fall out with a certain someone several weeks ago. It never would have felt like World War III if he had just learned to say the words "I'm sorry".

He made a really hurtful comment saying "..you're losing weight, you almost look anorexic"

#1 Never make a comment about a woman's weight unless she's asked you herself.
#2 Even if you've been asked, you should ALWAYS choose your words wisely.

Ok. For a fat person trying to lose weight, those words would have probably not been received so negatively. But for someone like myself who finds gaining weight a struggle, it felt like a really big stab to the heart. So I CRIED. Firstly because it wasn't my fault I was naturally built with a small frame. Secondly, I felt and I certainly knew that I wasn't anorexic (nor would I want to be). Thirdly, it hurt to hear those words come from someone i was really close to. And finally, it hurt to have that person say those words (obviously without great thought into it) and not apologise!

To make the situation worse, rather than be apologetic and comforting, he told me I was just being 'too sensitive' and justified his statement saying that he was just trying to encourage me to eat more. (uhh, thats what i've been doing since forever, but can i help it that my damn metabolism goes so fast! but yeh.. way to go!!! great way to encourage someone. woo! *sarcasm*).

I went home that day angry and critical of my self and how I looked. I stayed in my room and just cried. Bawled my eyes out for hours until my eyeballs literally felt like they were burning. At that point, my mum kept knocking on my door to ask if i was okay. I was farrrrrrrr from being okay. I didn't feel like talking to anyone. I was so hurt and so angry. I JUST wanted to hurt him for saying those words to me.

He rang me couple of hours later and asked me if i was feeling better. Hell no I didn't feel better!!! I thought 'what the heck kind of question was that?!!!' We spent ages arguing on the phone. It was frustrating when all i wanted was to hear that he was sorry for hurting me, but instead all I got was him trying to justify what he said.

him: why do you have to cry and be upset for? you're so sensitive!
me: WHY DO YOU THINK IM UPSET FOR?! DO YOU THINK I ENJOY CRYING AND FEELING THIS WAY?! You said some hurtful things.
him: what hurtful things?? that you're losing weight??
me: WHEN YOU SAID I ALMOST LOOKED ANOREXIC. DO I LOOK ANOREXIC TO YOU?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
him: no.
me: THEN WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT SORT OF THING?!
him: I never said those words to intentionally hurt you.
me: OK FINE YOU NEVER INTENTIONALLY WANTED TO HURT ME! BUT THE POINT IS I DID GET HURT!! WHY COULDNT YOU HAVE JUST APOLOGISED IN THE FIRST PLACE?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
him: BUT I DIDNT THINK I SAID ANYTHING WRONG!
me: WHAT??!! YOU SEE ME CRYING, I TOLD YOU THAT IM HURT.. AND YOU DIDNT THINK YOU SAID ANYTHING WRONG??!! THATS JUST IT, YOU DIDNT THINK!!
him: OK! IM SORRY OKAY, even if i didnt think i did anything wrong!!
me: NO IT'S NOT OKAY! YOU CAN'T JUST APOLOGISE WHEN YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT YOU'RE APOLOGISING ABOUT!!

Anyways, FFW-ing.. With all that out of my system.. he did eventually give a sincere apology and acknowledged his mistake. Im not one to hold grudges.. And Im glad to say our friendship is back on track.

I forgive you and I love you (if you're reading this u nonghead!) :p